There are roads in our minds, and some of the roads we take aren't the way the world plays out. We ruminate about the most logical paths, but rational or not, it may not be. The runway to truth is a slim path that only few can take, but here I am taking my way on my mind and heart with the thoughts and outcome of a legendary icon in my mind. He made it, but he also never made it but some like him did, and I saw their mistakes and sins, because they left this world without satisfaction of fulfillment in their heart.
I'm taking a different path. I'm learning, I'm on my way to....whatever it will be. I surrender, to God who is before me. I'm working and breathing in and exhaling labor, working my truth, and if anyone gets in the way, they better not touch me, I'm biting their gut where they had nourishment and I'll suck it all up.
There are miracles in me, and if there are those who want me to die, I will show them the miracles in me. I'm the fortunate, the one who lived through it, and one of the ones who made it through the tunnel. The fear is to never be, to never come to fulfillment or find the complete wholesomeness that was meant to be; but to that I say...time is on my side, if God's willing.
The belief is there, and it will take a while and will take miracles to achieve the strong surrendering truth that is before me. Creating the outcome and making the facts into truth, the nonsense into love and the heartbreaks into a message, a testimony, a love for others to soak up and learn from.
I am an abstract anomaly and my talks and shizzles are sometimes confusion to others, but who would want to understand everything instead of the big picture of the complete truth. I'm not here to explain, I'm here to share and to voice out my heart, and who cares to the ones who wants me to feel a hole inside my soul and to not feel a complete love that God ordained me to have. I'm the heavenly angel who came to this Earth, and if no one cares or realize it, it would be to their detriment, not mine. I know who I am. I'm loving me, I'm on my way to...whatever it will be. I surrender, to God who is before me.
Just like that, I breathe in love and I am forever going to be strong and loving.
Still in the game, even after all this time. I'm on my way to, .... amen.