Diana Kurniawan

Today I walked by a computer at work that showed slides of empowering statements made for the workers of the hospitals. It said things like, "I am proud to declare that you are our hero," and another one, "You make me proud to be your coworker," and others more like it. It made me feel good and gave me a little more energy than minutes before.

I am not sure why but during these fall and winter seasons, my energy goes down a bit. I don't know if it is the season and weather or the pull of the equinox that makes it so, but it does. So when I saw the nice posts and slide show, it truly made my day. Unlike these posts of my blog, those slide shows on the hospital computer hits many viewers. I am not so sure about this blog.

I will have to take this blog down eventually, I just don't know when, but it is being worked on. I have asked Authors Guild to cancel my membership and I hope they will let me cancel it. I won't know what's going on, because it took me some minutes to find out how to cancel my membership on my own, and it didn't work. So adieu for now. I might be gone in a month or so, if I'm not, then I decided it is still safe for me to put on my feelings on my blog. 

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I walked on the pathway from the parking lot to the hospital and noticed the breeze caressing my face. The breeze brought a butterfly that landed on a flower in front of me, swaying in the wind, but the fluttering wings of the butterfly kept flapping against the wind, creating this play of butterfly and flower going against each other. The sight gave me a sense of hope and it was so lovely to my soul that I wanted to capture the moment, but the butterfly flew away and I was unable to take my phone to take a video. 

I was so happy that I got to see the wonder and I was thankful this morning. That gratitude brought joy throughout my whole day. I was so thankful. I haven't felt this peace in a long time. The other day, I was so distraught, and I think it was what I drank but I couldn't remember because I was so tired that I drank everything in sight that gave me energy. One of them was an iced americano. That was a no-no. I was at fault and I felt like an idiot afterwards. I should have known this mistake a hundred times I've made it seems. I will just drink the 8 to 10 ounces that I am allotted for energy throughout the day. I need it for work because it is a very active and physical work and I break it down quickly. I think that other day, I drank a venti, or a 24 ounces, and it was my stupidity. I apologize to God, the almighty, and to my brain and to myself for making that sorry mistake over and over again.

Today, I only drank 8 ounces and it was so good. I was comfortable and I was capable to do my job and had the energy to keep going. Then I played some music within our pod for me and my coworkers, and just enjoyed the time there. It felt comfortable, friendly, energetic, and I was thankful.

Right now, I'm reading a book about the gratitude of everyday life. It is paying off, and I am oh so grateful for today. God really showed up for me this morning with tbe butterfly. I can't wait for more to come.

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